Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Lydia's Arrival- Part 2

School was just about to let out, so we called a friend to pick up Eli and Evan for us.  Leaving them was one of the biggest disappointments about the possibility of Winnipeg.  I knew that they wanted to meet Baby at the first moment possible.  I didn’t know how long we’d be gone.  I knew they weren’t crazy about staying with other people overnight.  I was worried about them. 

I also wanted to go home so bad.  I just wanted 2 hours at home.  I wanted to take a nap at home and I wanted to clean up and pack my own stuff and pack things for Eli and Evan.  Thankfully, I was partially packed and had a packing list laid out just in case Kendall needed to run home for our things.  Of course they told me No, I couldn’t go home.  Kendall ran home and gathered the things on the list.  He called the boys on the way back to the hospital and reported to me that they sounded “indifferent” about the whole thing.  That was a relief and I realized that there was nothing I could do but trust God and our friends to take care of them.
The nurses came in and told me that the plane would be at the airport for me in a half an hour.  That is super fast.  I had been categorized as an “obstetrical emergency” and moved high on the list.  Before I knew it, I was dressed in billowing hospital garb and walking out to the ambulance in the garage.  They said I didn’t have to lie down in the back and said that I could sit wherever I wanted to.  So I asked if I could drive.  They said, “Sure!” but somehow I still ended up in the back.  Kendall got to ride shotgun. 
When we turned out of the hospital parking lot, the driver turned on the siren.  Right away, the EMT in the back told him to turn it off.  I heard the EMT explaining to the nurse in the back that for the extra seconds the siren buys, the sense of emergency and stress it raises for the patient isn’t worth it.  I sat in the jump seat facing the front.  As we sped down the highway, I could see cars pulling over as we passed.  I realized that the lights were on for me.  It was a weird feeling.  I don’t know that I’ve ever even been inside an ambulance on a field trip!  It was a beautiful, warm day and I remember feeling annoyed that I had missed it being inside.

At the airport, the ambulance drove out onto the tarmac where the medical evacuation plane was waiting for us.  It was such a surreal feeling as I crawled out of the ambulance and stood waiting in the warm wind and sunshine to board the plane.  On the plane, the nurse that was accompanying us wanted me to lie down.  So they strapped me to a stretcher.  I was on my side and could look out the window.  Every few minutes the nurse listened to Baby with the Doppler.  Baby did fine on the ride.  After 45 minutes or so we landed at the airport in Winnipeg.  I walked off the plane and was loaded onto another stretcher and into another ambulance.  This time we flew through the city with the sirens blaring.  By 6:30 or so we were pulling into the hospital parking lot.  I was taken right to a room in the high risk labor and delivery unit and wished luck by the EMTs and the nurse who came with us from Red Lake.

Lydia's Arrival- Part 1

I am unsure of when the story of Lydia’s arrival actually began.  I had lots of Braxton-Hicks contractions through much of my pregnancy.  I noticed that they were picking up in intensity in the last month.  A week before Lydia’s birth, we went to Winnipeg for an ultrasound.  The tech and the doctor there thought she looked good, just small.  The placenta and the rest of Lydia’s environment looked healthy to them.  The ultrasound tech told me, “I think you just grow big boys and small girls.”  According to her, this baby was most likely just “petite.”

On Tuesday I started noticing little gushes of fluid.  Could it be amniotic fluid?!  Who knew?  All kinds of weird things happen in a pregnant body.  I paid close attention though.  On Wednesday Kendall stopped at the hospital and picked up some litmus paper.  From what we understood, it was supposed to change color if it was amniotic fluid.  It didn’t change color.  I still paid attention.  We debated whether or not to go in and get checked.  To be honest, I just wasn’t at all thrilled about going and spending several hours sitting in a waiting room waiting to be seen when I was feeling just fine.

Thursday morning I was full of energy and got my hair cut and went grocery shopping.  I was still noticing fluid.  When I got home I thought about it that I hadn’t felt Baby move very much that day.  I decided to sit down and hold still and pay attention.  She just wasn’t moving much.  She moved a bit, but not nearly as much as she normally did.  Kendall and I kept checking in by phone.  Finally after I ate some lunch, I went in and met Kendall at the hospital.  They were expecting me there and took me to the delivery room.  (Weird!)  The nurses strapped me up to the monitors to see what Baby was doing in there. 
After a bit, the nurses started asking me if I was feeling the tightenings or contractions.  Well, I was to a degree, but I had been feeling them for months!  What I was feeling on Thursday was nothing different from what I had been feeling all along.  They saw that Baby’s heart rate was dropping with each tightening.  That is normal to a degree.  Apparently, though, it was dropping too drastically.  They called the doctor on call to come over from the clinic to see what was going on.  He came and consulted with us.  While he was in the room, the monitor showed a drastic drop in Baby’s heart rate- down in the 60s.  He happened to see that and realized this was serious.  (I was still rather oblivious to the seriousness of what was happening.)  Kendall said later that he was so thankful that the doctor was in the room and saw the drop for himself.  Sometimes it is up to the nurses to try to convince the doctors of the gravity of what is going on.

Sometime around then, the doctor mentioned the possibility of sending me to Winnipeg.  I couldn’t believe it.  When I went in, I thought they would strap me to monitors, tell me Baby was just fine, and most likely send me back home to wait for another week or so.  (She started moving normally once I was sitting on the hospital bed.)  I thought maybe my amniotic sac had actually broken and they would need to induce me.  But I wasn’t thinking Winnipeg.  We don’t have a surgery here in Red Lake.  If an emergency comes up, you get “medivac’ed” or flown out to a bigger center.  The wait for a plane can take hours.  Then you have a 45-minute flight to Winnipeg or Thunder Bay. 

I didn’t want to go to Winnipeg.  Sure enough, the doctor came back after awhile and said, “You got yourself a trip to Winnipeg.”  I didn’t want to go to Winnipeg.  Around this time, Kendall and I were in the room by ourselves and I started crying just a bit.  But of course I was in this small-town hospital with a nurse I knew well and all of Kendall’s co-workers.  So I pulled myself together and held in the tears.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

She's Here!

Welcoming Lydia Raine! Isn't she precious?


Well, I sat down to write, but looks like this is as far as I'll get...Miss Lydia is vehemently requesting my attention.  More to follow...

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

And this is what we get for being youth leaders...


Don't ask why I flatter myself so...
(By the way, this is over a month ago- my belly has grown since then.  I don't think I am able to fly at this point, though I haven't tried in awhile.)

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Waddle, Waddle

Well, with less than 3 weeks to my due date, I am officially declaring myself "Allowed to Waddle."  According to what I've heard from ultrasounds, my due date is anywhere from 2 weeks and 2 days from now to 3 weeks and 3 days from now.  I'll just listen to my own dates, which puts the due date at May 24- 2 days short of 3 weeks from today.  Craziness!

And hmm....  Today is some kind of super-duper full moon, so if you believe that affects labor, it may be sooner than we all think...

So, what people always ask:  "Are you ready?"  How do you answer that question?  Yes, I have diapers and sleepers and the room is mostly set up.  My hospital packing list is printed out and lying in the crib, waiting to be needed.  Yes, I am ready to sleep well when I am in bed.  I am ready to not be carrying around this big belly.

And I am so ready to be holding this little baby in my arms, rather than in my belly.  I can't wait to meet her.

But does any of that really mean you're ready?  Am I ready to be up with her in the night?  (That actually sounds like an improvement compared to the way nights have gone for the entire pregnancy.)  Am I ready to try to figure out what she needs when she is fussy?  (Kendall and I were recently in  a meeting where 2 babies were fussing.  He looked over at me and I could see the terror in his eyes.)  Am I ready to face to possibility of postpartum depression again?  Am I ready for labor and delivery?  (Let's not even get into that one.)  Am I ready to not simply jump in the car, holler at the boys to buckle up and speed off to somewhere?  Do we really have any idea how this will change our lives?  Probably not.  But ready or not, here we come!

I cling to my friends' assurances that Baby #3 is so different, easier, so much fun.  (I have found that sometimes even false hope works in a pinch.)  But I'm hoping that we will find this to be true.  It makes sense: I'm older and hopefully more mature; Baby #3 has to be flexible to fit into an already busy family life; lots of attention from big brothers; more of us to enjoy each smile and new step.

So, though we are nervous about the coming changes, we are ready to face them and welcome this new family member.

I guess I should also give a bit of a "medical" update.  My boys were big- each very, very close to 9 pounds.  This baby is small.  When they try to put dates on her during an ultrasound, they measure her at close to 2 weeks behind.  The medical concern is that perhaps the placenta isn't giving her all she needs.  So we are being sent out to Winnipeg next week for an ultrasound and an appointment with an obstetrician.  There is a possibility that if they believe she needs more than the placenta is providing, they will go ahead and induce labor, bringing her out where she may be better off.

I think she's fine.  I rejoice at the idea of a healthy baby that is smaller than the boys!!!  She is so active (and here I thought girls are calm).  I just can't imagine that a malnourished baby would have so much energy.  Even the doctor that I've been seeing most recently, seems to think that things are probably fine.  Girls tend to be on the smaller side.  I'm on the smaller side.  A 6 or 7 pound baby should not be an issue.  We are going to go ahead and keep the appointment in Winnipeg, but I expect to come back home and wait for another 2 weeks.

Really, my big concern in all of this is Eli and Evan.  We decided to take them with us to Winnipeg since we just left them for 2 nights when we went to Winnipeg a couple weeks ago.  They don't love being left overnight and we decided to make this into a fun family get-away.  But we have had to think about the off-chance that the doctor will tell us to stay in Winnipeg and start labor.  What do we do with the boys?  It's hard to know how to handle the possibility of a long-distance delivery, but that's reality for everyone who is pregnant in Red Lake.  Any ideas?  Anyone want to be on call to drop everything and get to Winnipeg to hang out with the boys???

Anyway, so that's my update...  And lest I sound less than enthusiastic about this baby, let me reassure you that I am very, very excited!  I would love to fast forward everything to babytime.  But it's Saturday morning and there is work to be done...

They're Awake

This was actually a photo Kendall a few weeks ago, so they've been awake for awhile.  We've heard they're in the neighborhood.  Here we go...  No more birdseed at this house!

Evan's Catch

45 inches!  I'm not sure how a little guy catches a fish as big as himself...  He's quite proud.  I overheard Kendall asking Evan to teach him how to catch such a big fish.  Evan had detailed instructions for his daddy.